I am pretty sure I make mistakes, and they are not few, I am pretty sure I've already hurt people, and it did not happened only once, I am pretty sure I am an ordinary human being, as any other on the planet, full of good and bad things.

If I ever made something bad to you, I do apologize and you can certainly now that I never meant to hurt you, NEVER! I've always tried to be kind, helpful, fair... but I can fail and if I did, sorry! Shit happens, they really do and sometimes we cannot control it even if we want to.

People will always do something bad for you just because nobody is perfect. What makes the difference is the way you take it, the way you deal with it, what really matters to you. 

I always prefered to measure and balance everyone around me, no matter the "relationship status", by the good things they've done for me, tha's why I have friends that are by my side for years and years... do you really think they never did anything wrong? they never hurt me? ou that I never made something wrong? or that I never hurt them? You can be sure that in 7, 10 or 20 years of friendship a lot of things happened, including bad things that hurt one or another side, but as always, instead of thinking about wat was wrong we decided to see what was always right and we were always sure: that we do love each other, and care for each other and if anything bad was done or said, we now that it was never to hurt us, even if sometimes it did. 

I really wanted people to do the same, but now I see that it's easier hold on to the bad things and just forget the rest... It's easier to judge and convict... it's easier to decry. 

At first ir hurt so bad, and when I say it hurt I really mean it. I've always heard that the pain makes you harder, and I swear I didn't wnat it to happen to me. But I am tired of being judged, I am tired of people confusing my mistakes with being evil and confusing my being kind with being and idiot. Why do I have to be perfect? Why can't I make mistakes just like everyone does?

It's not nice to say that I will star not to believe in people, but I think I do have no choice... If I can't make mistakes and will be judged for that, I will do just the same... If I am expected do be perfect, I wil expect the same... and don't think I'll justify my mistakes with yours, I will just show that you do the same and I never treated you bad because of this.

Sorry you all but nobody will make me feel bad about something that I didn't really do or mean... And more, no one will ever make me believe I am evil, because I am not!