Do you know what it feels like?

This text was writen in 2008, I just found it and wanted to share.

Do you know what is it to like someone and not have this one?
Even if you decided not to have... what I think it's worse, it hurts much more and it makes you experience the most diferent feelings... happiness sometimes, sadness most of the time, the wonderful sensation of being free at the same time that everything you don't wanna be is free...
Weird? Yeah it is... 
The wish and desire of being together at the same time that you want the distance... 
It's putting things away without wanting it... organizing things that you need to, but you do not really want to do it because you were fine with them...
Feel good and evil sensations about yoursef and the other...
Feel the happines of having your friends around you and giving you suport and feeling lonely for not having just one person by your side...
Laugh and cry... 
Feel happy and sad, sometimes on the the edge of feeling miserable...
Feel that you took the right decision, and realize that the right decision not always can make you feel fine...
Realize that the right decision hurts you so bad... but being sure that it was the best to make for both...

and life goes on...

I am trying to make it the best way I can